Change alone is eternal, perpetual, immortal.I found it less than coincidental considering this was also what our sermon was about yesterday at church! Wow! Was God speaking directly to me again? Believe, me, I am not one for change (especially within myself), but I sure could feel God pushing me at church. This quote was just some form of confirmation for me!
- Arthur Schopenhauer
UGH! Really? Do I HAVE to change? This almost ALWAYS means stepping out of my comfort zone and taking that leap of faith ... something, obviously, I'm not comfortable doing! So, I have to look at several different aspects of my life and find what changes need to happen. And, the toughest part is I have to be able to accept these changes without complaining or arguing, so says Philippians 2:13-15:
for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe.
How hard that is going to be?! Nevertheless ... I am always up for a challenge! So, the first way I felt God pushing me was to get involved in a ministry in the church. We are still somewhat new to this church. When we moved into our new home, although only one town over from where we lived and went to church for over 5 years, it was time for us to move on from there too due to "not so good changes" taking place within the church. So, having only been at our new place of worship for about 10 weeks, I guess I was thinking I wasn't ready to "jump in." But, God obviously has other plans! At our previous church we had worked first with the college/young adult ministry and then moved into the youth and spent 4 years pouring into these guys' lives! It was very difficult for us to leave them. Now, I had once more been asked to fill a spot teaching 5th and 6th grade girls. Again, God is testing me because he knows how I struggle with girls, hence the reason He gave me three to raise! Here at home I have to endure make-overs, sleepovers, DRAMA, pink, flowers ... all the "girly" things I detest. Now, once again I am confronted with a situation that calls me into the unknown "world of the preteen girl." (Yes, I was even pushed into setting up the preteen girl website by God for several days through my dreams ... but I obeyed)! Hence the reason, I told them last night that I would indeed assist as a teacher for the girls, and have made one step closer to that "change" God has required of me.
What other changes are coming? It's scary, but I really don't know yet? I pray God doesn't ask me to have to pick up a phone and do something along those lines ... I can't stand talking on the phone. I've actually lost out on good paying web design jobs because I wouldn't pick up the phone and call someone! But, as I mentioned before, you know it's going to involve leaving my own "comfort zone" to step into a position for which God has called me. How can you say no when you know that is God's calling in your life ... and He's standing behind you pushing you into position? You can't!
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
- Ephesians 2:10
